Thursday, June 16, 2011

Terrible mood.


My hair looks fantastic today.

My only problem with that is I cant get past the thought that after tomorrow, it will never be this exact level of cuteness again. I'm not changing it or anything.... that's just my hairs MO.... once its great enough for me to notice through my stress filled haze, its pretty much done till the next time I get a cut.

I am in an awful mood. I have been for about two weeks. I cant figure out why, my only real clue is I work for a high-strung micro manager, and I myself tend to want things done perfectly... but lately, I feel like crying at work. I feel like I cannot do anything right, and I cant go a single day without getting yelled at, but that is perfectly normal, and usually I have duckfeathers about the whole thing.

I hate feeling like this, I know that realistically the world is not falling down around my ears, in reality, I'm almost ashamed to say, my life is pretty friggin perfect.

So why do I want to bury my face in a pillow and scream until my lungs collapse? I think that's whats bothering me most of all... I just really don't know the why.

I'm not going to talk about this anymore. nothing good ever came from throwing a pity party... I'm just going to go back to slapping a fake smile on my face, and hope that I can get away without killing anyone.